(These are last year's blooms.)
I wanted to write a few words today because I am so sick of being sick and not being able to write a few words.
I don't know what I have or had. Finally got to the doctor yesterday after the snafu last week. I got a shot, two prescriptions and an inhaler. Apparently there has been a lot of this going around. People thinking it was just allergies until it became an infection. Of course each prescription I was given has a side effect. One makes my blood pressure go up, the other makes my sugar go up. It feels like I'm having hot flashes all over again - and that is something I don't want to relive. Hear me? So enough about sickness and on to life.
For the last week the fixit guys have been here replacing boards on the main house and my apartment. It took so long to wait our turn in line that I couldn't complain that I was dying and all the hammering was only helping me get there faster.
The problem is not the noise or the stacks of wood, or the nails that I keep finding on the ground - old, rusty, nasty nails. The problem is that thanks to my onslaught of illnesses, I didn't get to get in my yard like everyone else in blogland. My flower beds aren't cleaned of winter debris. The sticks and stems haven't been collected and set aside for the birds. In fact, I probably haven't even feed the birds twice in the last two weeks. They have probably moved out thinking that I moved out.
There are flakes of old paint blown around the yard and little slivers of old wood dotting the ground. It's not their fault, its my frustration. I look out in yard and instead of the land of contentment, I see a battlefield. I know it is a war I can win. I know it is not a lost cause. I just want my health back so I can get out there. It will happen. Isn't it always the case that you want the thing you can't have?
If my biggest complaint (ok, second biggest complaint after my cough) is that I can't get out in the yard and get nasty, sweaty, dirty - then my life must be going pretty well.
So Thank You Lord for a life that is going pretty well.